So for all you dirty minds that thought I wasn't getting any sleep because of well, you know, then shame on you! At the same time I know you wouldn't put it past me with my current rep with the ladies. But really I'm not ly'n when I say I'm really not a player.... lol ... ok not a big one! HAHA. Tried to fight those demons and it didn't work. I just love to love. So I guess the real me is back! Watch out I've been hiding for too long!! But don't get me wrong when I say at the moment I've got a small tug on my heart. I still can't let this one go.
She haunts me. I see her when I sleep. I hear her voice. I hear her laugh. It kills me sometimes. But day by day I know it will be ok again. Yet the thought of touching her, running my fingers through her short brown hair, like feathers excites me. Feeling that "God save me" soft skin every where I can. The wild bark color of her skin, the sexy tats that add just enough personality to the already attractive amount of it. Her figure that I wish I could touch now still. Those perfect curves drive me crazy. Girl you know I love them. That figure and those hands and legs. You drive me crazy still. Your kiss is the sweetest yet. When you touch me you're so careful it makes me smile. I love the way you let me be dominate and hold you tight, pull you close in my arms, take your breath away. But just know even with all the other amazing things we do, and they are amazing *wink* I only need to look in your eyes. The eyes that smile at me even when your not. The deepness of brown and honey and that sexy wink of yours. Girl you kill me!! Yes all I need is your eyes. True the sound of us together laughing fills me with butterflies and I can't help but smile, or the look you give me when you don't think I'm watching, or that smile. That soft kiss me smile. Hell I need you, all of you. In my buzzing state of mind when I'm out drinking with friends I feel you next to me and I feel relaxed thinking of meeting your large family and just sitting with them being fully excepted for who we are. Hearing "pass the girl a beer and some meat on the BBQ" is the perfect sound at the moment. The perfect vision is your mouth, that tempting ring that I will never stop biting on because of the way you sound when I do. If you read this, maybe you might, then know that I miss you. That I'd love to see where this can go if I come back. But be happy until that point. Just the thought of you keeps me content. Keeps me at bay, but no promises girl. Just do what you gotta do and so will I. But your name is in my mind more then I'd like and your my favorite addiction...
So to my ladies, ahhhh you've got competition! LOL! No J/K! No, I want to thank you for being you. For letting me kiss you, or touch you, dance with you or just be with you at the time. For the sweet nights where I hope I did you right and said what you wanted to hear, gave you what you wanted of me and maybe we can venture that way again but at the moment I've got this thing and I really need another... fix. I know only my girls will understand this if they read it, to everyone else I'm really not a player, I love em when they want love and I let em go when they need to be... nothing more, nothing less. *Wink*
(I know my gay boys are shaking their heads at me... You love me and you know it!!! Kisses*)
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